Then love, it is.

Hello viewers!
15/01/2016, but I hope that its still not too late to wish everyone a happy new year!
Sorry for not blogging for so long. Why am I blogging today? Well, I just wanna express out my feelings for that special someone.

Well, I found my first love 5 years ago 6 years ago. And I stupidly thought he was the one for me. For 5 god damn years I put on so much hope on him. But didn't know that I would go through a terrible heartbreak. That feeling, when you are in love with someone but that person just doesn't love you back, and talks shit about you, well, that's really heartbreaking. I got so depressed, I cried everyday thinking about someone whom doesn't even love me.  Since then, I thought, I might never find anyone who could ever replaced him, maybe I was just too traumatized by what happened?

But just as I thought I would never ever find a new love, God sent me someone whom have succeeded in searching the key to the door of my heart again. Fate from God, you can never deny them. Who would knew, a person whom have always been with you all along would be the one you'll fall for. I never knew the guy that I knew seven years ago, is the person whom I will fall for. Yes, we did not talk that much a few years ago, and only got closer after this one event held for my madrasah. This guy, whom I shall just refer to as Mr. Right, persuaded me to join a cca in poly because he wanted more people to join in this cca. I did not want to, but after much persuasion, I agreed to join. But little did I know which subgroup in the cca was I joining. When he told me that he's signing me up for drama, I was so happy. Like, I love doing drama, and for someone to tag me along to do something that I really love, I would not want to miss that opportunity! *ps: till now I still don't know how does he know that I love to act???*

After some time, we got even closer, because both of us were chosen as the main cast for our production. Going home together after trainings and those heart-to-heart talks were one of the excuses to get closer to him. I felt butterflies on my tummy whenever I see him. And I got jealous every time I see him talking to his girl friends, but I just can't do anything about it because he's not mine to begin with.:')

He's not that cute, and he's far from good-looking. But why did I fall for him? Well, one thing that I could assure you is that he has a pure and kind heart. He was there for me for two of the major events in my life, and whenever I needed that support and motivation. I was really nervous for the release of my o-level results, but he was there to calm me down. I was really demotivated for my production, I really thought I was going to screw things up, but he was there for me to give the fullest support. And I really appreciate that kind of people.:')
Well that's not the only character in him that made me fall for him. I really liked him for his annoying yet funny teases, his lame yet funny jokes, his respect for both his parents, his love towards kids and most importantly never missing his daily prayers, because I really want a man that can bring me together along with him to Jannah.:')

That's when I learned that I've actually fall for him. It was really shocking and unexpected. How could I not see him the way I do now a few years back?

I'm really sad by the fact that we are drifting away from one another and not as close as we were then after the production ended. Maybe he was drifting away because he already knew  how I felt towards him and didn't want to make things so awkward?? Rumours has it guys, rumour has it. People said that it was too obvious that I liked him and I have to agree with that.

I just hope that one day, he will realize that I do have feelings for him and hope that he feels the same way I do. I don't want to go through another heart-breaking moment.  He might not be my first, but I really hope that he'll be my last love.

And to you, my hopefully Mr. Right, if you see this post, I want you to know that I really like you. I know I am so obvious, and I'm trying to control my feelings because you are currently not mine. If we are meant to be, we are meant to be. But if we're not, I hope that we don't go on  separate ways because I don't want to lose contact with someone whom have opened the door of my heart again after that horrible heartbreak. I hope that we are meant to be together. But if we're not, I hope that you are happy with your life always achieve the things that you want in your life. I hope that you will be happy with the the special person you've chosen to be your other half and I hope that you didn't choose the wrong lady.
I'm sorry if I've hurt you in any way, or if I have done anything that might create discomfort. I hope that you will be fine. :')

Lots of Love,
Putri 💕

*i really want to post a photo of us together, but I don't want to take the risk.*

Posh Accents✨

Hey readers!
It has been a year since I've been enrolled in Nanyang Polytechnic(NYP), taking the diploma of Mass Media Management(yup, give one stroke on that wishlist of mine). I had to make new friends in this new environment, and I have to say this, I really hate doing that. I'm socially awkward around people I'm not familiar with. With the new environment, I was really afraid that I could not adapt to the poly life. Well, I was wrong. I've met with the best people in poly. These 7 girls changed my life a lot. It has been a hard year for me, but, I'm really glad that I have my girls by my side when I'm at the lowest point of my life.

Seriously, these girls are da bomb.
                   

The Gorgeous✨

In case you guys have been wondering what is my clique's name, well, we've been changing names for the 7839462 times. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA Well it was once called "Kool Kids"(sounded cliche though) and then I changed it to ''The Gorgeous". The Gorgeous because they ARE gorgeous, inside out.

Okay back to the story. So we finalized our name as "Posh Accents" well merely because they liked it.💁

These girls really taught me a lot about life. One thing that I love about them is that we love to have deep conversations, but of course, with a funny twist.😏



So, lemme introduce them, one by one. Well, there's 8 of us, so lemme start of with the "coolest" among us, Deanna.

Deanna💕

This girl, is one of a kind. (Ok, maybe not. HAHAHAHAHA.😂) But one thing that's definitely about her, she LOVEEEESSSS acting cool. O.M.G. She will be talking in those accents, I'm sure she's the funniest among my clique. She's that one brave girl that I think only she's the only one whom tell me off. Fuhhh I salute u lah babe! And one thing that I like about her is her swag-ness(is there even a word called swag-ness?😂). Her indie style, her dimples, her bugs' teeth and her camel look is definitely one of the reasons why you guys should be atracted to her.HEHE.I love you Dee.💕

Next up, we have the innocent looking girl, Siti, (or more like Syaimah). hehe. I call her by both names so don't be confused.        
    

Syaimah💕

 This girl, she was the first person that attract my attention. For one simple reason, she wears hijab, like me. Well, at first, I thought she's that very popular girl, because of the way she dress up. Her face was sooo bitchy, not even a smile, I wanted to know her more but I was shy and scared. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! But... First impression doesn't last right? hehe.😝 She is one of the kindest and sweetest soul I've ever met. Helping me out in every way possible. Being my listening ear if I need one. Well, that's why she's my Siti Intan Payung.💕





Now, lemme introduce to you this bubbly girl, Jacinth!

Jacinth💕

Well, she's one of the cutest girl I've ever seen! If you got a joke, Jacinth will be the first person who'll be laughing at your jokes, no matter how lameeeee it is!😂
She may look like the youngest, but the truth is, she's the oldest among us. (okay, she's not THAT old.. Just a year older though hahahahahha) One thing I really like about her is that whenever she laughs, her whole body would be bouncing, like she's dancing. Se cute i cannot! HAHAHAHHAHAHAH!!!😂 She's one of my competitor,  the horny guru in the clique. But just as when everyone thought she's the one with the most "knowledge", I proved them wrong. MUAHAHHAHAHA. And so I took her place as the horny guru.*Well Jacinth, you just can't beat me.💁😂*

(sorry Jac, I just had to🙊)

Okay, let's take a break!
Here are some of our photos that you guys can look at.

Our first selfie, a full one.

We got nothing better to do.

Just as we thought it was a perfect group photo,
my classmate photobombed this perfect photo.

I was not in school, so they took a selfie
without me sighhh..

Still feeling unwell so they went for Hari Raya outing
without me sighhh..

Yep, I was sick.

AND I HATE THIS SITUATION,
I'M NOT IN THIS BEAUTIFUL PICTURE!

Okay well at least I'm in this pic HAHAHAH!

Farhana💕

Okay moving on. I'm going to introduce to you to one of the hottest mama in the clique, Farhana!(When I say mama, I don't mean mummy-mama lah okay, but you geddit.) This girl, is a totally sweet girl. She's always calling people donkey and idiot but i know she don't mean it la duhhh...(I like it when she said "donkey!"  because she say it cutely, like Donkeeeeeeyyyyyy!!!) And her indian accent is a win man!(Sometimes I wish that I have that Indian accent like hers, LOL.) She might be one of the most random girl I've ever met. Shouting random words during classes, and suddenly asking you, "Eh, how's your day today?" But she's definitely the most frank and helpful girl you can find. Giving you all the advices and motivation that you need. Everytime when I think I'm not doing my best or I need a friend that I could get an opinion, she will always be there to comfort or share her thoughts. And that's why I love her.💕

Sameera💕

We meet again Sam...We meet again... I'm telling you, this girl is a real proud Directioner.  Tell her anything about One Direction, and you are instantly her best friend!(or maybe not?) If there's a Directioner Award, I think she has a high chance of winning. Well, this girl here is a talkative, and I think she had beaten my record for being the chattiest person! Yes, I can't deny that I talk alot, but my moment of talkativeness only come once in a blue moon. BUT THIS GIRL TALKS ALOT I JUST THINK THAT SHE HATES SILENCE HAHHAHAHAHA!!!There's always a topic that she will talk about. Sometimes I do feel uncomfortable about her talking too much, but hey, everyone has a special thing in them, right? I really think she is going to be a very successful scriptwriter(she can give A LOT OF IDEAS SERIOUSLY) or deejay if she becomes one. And I think that without her, this clique wouldn't be as fun because there's no one to start a conversation.And that's why I love you Sam. You're seriously the convo starter Sam..hehe..💕

*in case you don't know, she was from the same primary school as me, but we did not talk at all, because we were from different classes. And sorry Sam, I did not know your name then.🙊*

(OHMYGOD I WROTE TOO MUCH ABOUT SAM???)

Fre💕

 The busy bee among us. Hey Fre! But hey, no matter what, she would always try to make some time to be with us. She was also the very first person whom started talking to me. Haha, I still remember how awkward we were that moment, and she was like "Hi my name is Frenandez, you can call me Fre!" And I still remember how hard it was, trying to control my bladder because I don't know the way in NYP. But she, kind-heartedly accompanied me to the toilet because I was already shivering and sweating. Up till now, I still feel guilty for thinking that she came from The Philippines because of her really unique name, and somehow she looked like one. (sorry Fre >.<) I would like to thank her for saying "Hi" to me the first time we met because if not, all of us might not be together (maybe, maybe not). I love u Fre!💕

Faisha💕

Okay, last BUT not least, let me introduce you guys to the Queen, Faisha! During the orientation, she was the person I was eyeing for. Like, she's such a cutie, and she somehow reminded me of my junior in HS. She was so friendly(she's still friendly now guysssss) but she was with other groups and its only the first/second day so I had no balls (girls by right have no balls okayyyyy) to talk to her. If you think you have the sass, try her. She's the sassiest girl I've ever met, oh my, I think I need to learn from her how to sass around. Lol. What do I like about her? Okay, it sounds odd and really weird, but I like seeing her angry. The inner bitchiness will emerge and that's when her sass would reach to the max. She's so funny when she's angry, like SHE HAS THE CUTEST ANGER. PEOPLE PLEASE.✋ I still love you eventhough you're not angry, gurl.😉










Oh well, we have come to an end. Since this is a one-year anniversary, I would like to dedicate a message to the 7 of you. I know I can't write a long message on Instagram, what more Twitter.(okay maybe whatsapp can but mehhhh) Its hard to feature someone in my blog, what more a group. But guys, you guys have thought me a lot. I know I have been nasty, always being an electron(because its negative HAHAHAHA), I know I've made a lot and lots and lots of mistakes while a year being with you guys. I am truly very sorry for what I have done before. I know I have a suckish attitude. I am trying my best to be more composed and not raging everywhere and anywhere. It really takes time. I have gone through a lot, and that always add up to the stress level. I know I'm a bit too harsh but I really do not mean it. No matter what, you guys are my number 3 okay!(Allah comes first, my family comes second, best friends come 3rd!) I am really trying my best to stay calm, I really don't want to offend people anymore. If you guys always wonder why I often kept my mouth shut while I'm angry, well, simple. I have a blade in my mouth when I'm angry. If I speak up, I'm afraid I would wound a heart (please don't laugh, I'm trying my best to speak good English okay guys!) I don't want to continuously hurt your feelings because I don't want our friendship to be cold. If I get angry, please calm me down. Just try doing something so that I'll cool down. I know I'm scary when I'm angry, but guys, I don't eat people. I need you guys to give me the moral support because I can't do it alone. So please pray for me guys.

#PrayforPutri2k15

I just hope that after poly, our friendship doesn't end. I would pray for you guys. All of you will always be in my prayers. All the best for ur future. I may not be the best, but I will make you guys my best. One of the best place in my heart.
LoL,
Putri💕

*8th May 2015,
Happy birthday Syaimah!Sayang kau ketat-ketat!*

Forever always~

♥Forteen♥

Hey everyone!
Singapore's channel, Sensasi, just aired Forteen's concert on Christmas, so please take your time and read what I have to talk about Forteen. Well, I am a major hard core fan of Forteen. Even my non-Malay friends know who the heck Forteen is through me. You guys know what I received for my birthday? Forteen's album! Well, I have one, and when I told my clique about it, all of them went panic because they already bought me one. But its okay, I appreciate the album. Thanks guys! Forteen for the win!!Okay since I'm one of their loyal fans, I'm going to share how I got to know and love them, and why, and also about their solo concert!

This is my own pic. Copyrighted with a (c).

 Are you ready? Let's go!

Well, at first, I didn't know who is this group called "Forteen". But I kept on seeing their video "Seperti Dulu" on Youtube's recommended video. So, after getting really irritated by that recommended vid, I finally watched it. The song turned out to be very nice. And guess what, it turned out to be one of my fave songs! Hmm not that bad. But, my love for Forteen was still not as strong, UNTIL I started to watch 'Sebenarnya Saya Isteri Dia'(SSID) due to influence from lots of my friends. Thanks uh..😒😂

Hero and Heroine of SSID

I really loved watching that 13-episode drama series, firstly because of the story plot, secondly because of the hero-heroin's chemistry and thirdly because the hero, Izzue Islam was soooo freaking handsome!! By the way, the theme song of SSID is Forteen's very own song Kita.

See!If anyone says that he looks ugly, I got no comment. Like, bruh, he's so freaking handsome!! That drama made me have sleepless nights, thought of him every single day.. I was having my O-level prelims, but instead went on watching that drama.😅

I was THAT fanatic of him that I check out on him on Google and twitter. And I was even more shocked that he's a part of Forteen! And at that point of time, I was already starting to listen to all Forteen's songs, and I really love their songs! So that made me love him even more.

As time goes by, and after my "re-discovery" of Forteen, YES, I found my true love! My love, Forteen!♥ Yes, at first, I do love them because they got the looks, but now, I love them for MANY other reasons. Well, to me, they're not just good-looking, they also have the whole package a Boy-Band should have. They're talented, they have the looks, they have the aura while singing and not, and they are very friendly, not only in person, but also in twitter and instagram! Even their songs have their own attraction that made me have goosebumps just by listening to it once!

If you ask me who do I like the most, well, I have to say that Ariz is my NUMBER 1 choice!

He soooo look like a Korean guy, but nahhhh...He's a Malaysian!

OMGGG GAHHHHH!!!Please take a moment to appreciate his looks! Well, I loveeee him firstly because he is so cute and handsome omgomggggggg!!!Secondly, he is so friendly! He followed me on twitter,always been retweeting and favouriting my tweets on twitter and once replied my comment on his instagram.OMGOMGOMG!!!XD

But hey!I love the other three too okay! There's once where I went to their performance live in Singapore(Once in a lifetime opportunity! Forteen isn't always here in Singapore okayyyy), and they stood really near me. So, Ameer noticed me(OMGOMGOMG) and gave his mike to let me sing with him! OMGGGGG I felt sooo happy, and so lucky!! I was so excited that the moment I open my mouth to sing, the pitch and tune went all over the place. Hahaha!!😂😂😂

Here's a proof.Told ya' I didn't lie.hahaha!!😂😂😂

And yes, not forgetting this Abang Sado (which means Muscle man in Malaysia),I didn't know he could sing so well! I love the way he sang the ethnic song during the concert, like, it was the BEST from One!No wonder he's a singer before he joined Forteen!hehehe.😝

One is the vocal power in the group.

While many think that Forteen is a flower-boy group, they proved it wrong with their latest concert. And, I have to say this, the performances made on their solo concert was the best from them. They made a surprise to us Forteenagers! They remake 'Seperti Dulu', changing the genre from Pop-Ballad to Jazz! I think that's one of the most brilliant idea they've come out with! But, oh well, they only do that for the concert, and they won't remake that into a studio version because the Jazz version is only meant for the concert. Awww so sweet of you guys..

During the concert, All of them got a chance to sing on their own. They prove to us that they could also perform well solo! Ariz sang 'Pencuri', while One sang 'Laksmana Raja Dilaut'. Ameer's rocking with the medley songs, 'Nakal' and 'We Will Rock You', and Izzue with 'Sahabat', and these songs are definitely out of their comfort zones, especially One because he sang a traditional/ethnic song which is certainly hard to sing.

One's best performance so far!

Ariz sang his favourite song!

 Keep on rocking Ameer!*inserts a rock on sign*

Keep calm and love Izzue Islam.♥

Okays, that's all I have to say about Forteen. Keep calm and love Forteen!  Be sure to vote for Forteen at Anugerah Meletop Era 2015 guys! Singing off!

Lots of love,

Putri.♥

Maharaja Lawak Mega 2014.

Hey readers.
I'm finally updating, but for another purpose. I hope that the producers of Maharaja Lawak Mega 2014 would come across this blog of mine and read this because I want to express out my opinion and dissatisfaction.

I have been following Maharaja Lawak Mega(MLM) from the first season up till now, and from what I know, comedians from three different countries from Malaysia, Singapore and Indonesia combine and compete with each other. In the first season, yes, I see the purpose of this competition that competes among countries. But from season to season, I realise that MLM has defeat its purpose.

From season to season, I realise that competitors from Singapore and Indonesia has become lesser and lesser, making this competition feel more like a Malaysia-based competition, meaning, almost all the competitors are made up of Malaysian comedians.

So I think, why do you even do this competition when in the end, almost all the contestants are from Malaysia? Take MLM2014 as an example, there were NO Indonesia comedians competing. And there's only ONE Singapore competitor in MLM2014, which is Comey. BUT!!That group consist of a Singaporean and Malaysian. So I really think that it's unfair.

And with Comey whom has just been eliminated, everyone competing in MLM2014 are Malaysians. I don't think MLM is exciting anymore after Comey has been eliminated. I just think that if it's really a regional competition, they should have include more comedians from other countries.

ANDDDD!!!! I'M REALLY DISSATISFIED WITH THE RESULT ABOUT COMEY BEING ELIMINATED!!!There are others who did worse than Comey, but they were eliminated instead. I would really appreciate it if MLM would do a wildcard round because Comey still deserve to be in MLM!!They have been doing well for the past weeks, so I think when they got eliminated this week is just too drastic and too much. There are others who are not doing well and are still in the competition.

And last but not least, I still don't understand, why does the people whom have won are battling again??Yes I do love them, I love Sepahtu, I love Jozan(Zizan especially), I love Mr Os, but why are they entering this competition again? To me, if they have won, it means that they are the best. Why do they have to compete again when everyone will know what to expect in the future? They should give opportunities to the rookies to shine or those who have not yet won a chance to win, if you get what I mean.

I really hope that the MLM producers or Astro could do something about these issues, because I really love Comey, and I want to see more comedians from Singapore and Indonesia. I want the newbies to gain a spotlight and get more supporters, and not the popular teams getting more and more votes from the judges and viewers.

That's all I have to say. This is just an opinion of mine, because I'm a really big fan of MLM.PLEASE DO SOMETHING ASTRO!
LOL,
Putri

Alhamdulillah,I passed!

Hey peepos!
I wanna update to u guys.I've actually taken my results a few minutes ago.Really very happy right now!Hahah!I've passed all my subjects!Thank you to those who have prayed for me.Love you guys!Thank you so much!Haha!K bye!
Lots of Love,
Putri❤

My visit to HS.

Hey peepo!
I went to visit my secondary school just now!And my friends told me to cook food for them.So I cooked them Hor Fun,They said it was nice.But Fikri did not came.He told me that he wanna eat my Hor Fun,but in the end,he didn't came to visit school.So end up I had to gave my food to Sakinah.Haishaishais.Luckily she loved my food.Lol.And Hafiz when he knew I brought my cooking,he wanted it.She have gave it to him the extra food.But nehmind.Just now,when we came to COE room(my CCA room),we were welcomed like VVIP!They took pictures with us.OMG.Haha!Of course me and Atiqah had a great time today.OK guys,that's all.Bye!
Lots of love,
Putri ❤

Should I?

Hey people,
Its the 2nd day of the year.I am seriously bored.I am still having my holidays because I'm waiting for my O-level results.Pray for me Kay guys?I really regret not going to work during this holiday..Like seriously,I have nothing to do at home except for watching my dramas and reading my novels.I was wondering,it would be fun if I get to write my own novel.. Because that had always been my secret dream that no one knew except for my mum.If there's a chance,I would make one.I have thought of the story plot,but I don't know if it is cliché or not.I would want to make a storyline that is different from other cliché novels like 'The Wedding Breaker'.If I were to pubnlishj,where should I go to?As far as I see,the Malaysian publishers only publish Malaysians' novels.I couldn't possibly publish in Singapore because it's hard to find a good source(publisher).But if I really do publish a novel,I would definitely tell you guys OK?I hope that my book would be as interesting as ever.Yeay! OK ,I'm singing off.Bye!
Lots of Love,
Putri